A Childy Uncle

Never notice that my niece Jessica has been so adulty.

Dragging me, and forcing me to play with her. Play with toys. We pretanded to cook with the plastic cooking tools. Which my sister ,brother and I played when we were kids. Now it is Jessica's time. How does time fly by ?

Being playing with Jessica, I had lots of funs. She is active but also talkive although I could not get her idea most of the time. A tinnitus was caused by her talk show while she were living in her world that time playing & talking.

Er.... Let me see. What did we cook? Plastical shell, plastical hot dog, plastical banana(do we need cook this?), plastical moon bean(no idea of that, but like moon) and plastical fish. And what the cooked food were laid on me. I shall eat them up! Pretended to be full and satisfied made her loughing.

What a pure heart and happiness ?

Teen or gean ?

Do we call that missing
or just name it dreaming?
In darkness we lost,
for countless it cost.

So long has it been.
As thou are my queen.
Many say they've seen
Childly call me teen.

I'll always follow
Till your final blow .
Too much as it means
Much too like yum geans :)

A busy day

Today I attended a job fair in Wenzhou. This is my first time to do it.
In the morning I took my resume along, only 5 copies.
When I reached there, I was amaized. I know why our goverment wants to control the population.
Oh,my! I can see nothing except black heads. The was a long long queue outside the entrance. It took my friends and me 5 minutes to get to the gate. Anyway I was glad to see that guys there were in order.
Inside, still crowded!
For about 2 hours I wandered among the booths and blacks(you know what this black stand for, Chinese head). I found my energy was pumped out rapidly there. For I could hardly breathe. So so fuggy.
Finally I got some opportunities to show my copies and my interviews with them were nice. For further discussions I will meet them on Monday one by one. On the other hand, they are closed to my house. Haha, I can ride to work if I success.

It was also in the morning, when I was on the bus to job fair. I got a call from Athdon English. It is a training center like Web. I did a interview at the center yesterday. Today I was asked to give a demo class. So I rushed there without any preparement. Because after I had a bowl of noddles as lunch, it was already 12:40. The class was scheduled at 1:00 pm. Luckily the bus took me there on time. However, I misunderstood their aims. What they want was a demo class. Instead, I gave a presentation of free style which was about my Indian family. Me and my big skull! But I found the other man who applied the same position made the same mistake as mine! :( Finly they found it was the receptionist's fault.
At the end I was given another change to prepare the class with their book in 15 minutes. What I gave was about present tense. What are you doing? I am reading! My! Full of the sounds in my brain now.
Still have a lot of work to do in the following days. God bless me! Hope I will the energy to deal with these things.

Once again at the intersection of life

As the title shows I am once again at intersection of my life. An opportunity is granted from my sister. She introduced my to her cousin. And his factory just happened to produce amusement equipments. Maybe some of you know that I did some research of these thing last year with Anthony my ex-workmate. How life changes. I am now still nothing while Anthony is doing well at valves. To be honest, I am still a little bit not over it. I think I have done much, but still wandering outside the palace. Many say that I am a hard working man. However they all know that I overpaying my health. Why my payments always didn't equal to gains. Who say it is ture that you will get what you sow. Is it a truth? I didn't see it through as far anyway. To many bunks. Back to my mind. It is time to think over the whole thing of whether working there. 1. It is still my dream to work as an sales for foreign trading. Though I have failed many times, I am still willing to be active man. Never too late to carry out my dream, right? I don't wanna myself regret one day. So one point backs. 2. I have working in this area for almost two years. My experiences are there to back up me. I have experience difficultes, embarrassments, disappointments, hopelessness, happiness and as well as sense of achiements. All of these made up my memory of the past two years. Can I keep myself out of it as working something else? Surely I can't and won't. Another point to back myself. 3. Wha more is that I have been Improving my English so much. In spit it is stil improving, I am pround that I have reached a high level now. So if I just stop right here to do the others, I know I will lose a lot what I have paid much. For my English, I would love to keep on moving. See! One more point. On the other hand, I widely know my health is my soft spot. It is not easy to keep the balance of health and work. It is ironical that I don't know it yet. To me this much harder for me to learn. Hope the operation in Match will get rid of my damn stomach. Hoping I will be no longer suffer from it at all in future. God bless me. Anyway, first of first, I shall thank my dear sister Zhang Lifang. Though we are not blood related, I know you regard me as you own little brother. And you know I am the same. God bless you my very sister. No matter I will or won't work there,thank you for your consideration very much. Loving you!

Confession

Memory beats in my artery,;
How dare you call it reverie?
Your breath seeps in my my vein.
Missing drag me down like rain.

So baby hold me,
never hold back your true love.
Thus honey take me,
along take up my real thinking

Am I truely loving?

Recently I am closed with a girl. To me, I feel comportable and relaxed when I am with her. I enjoy the feeling very much. The more I spend with her, the stronger it gets.

I wonder whether this feeling is love. She is not that pretty. But I think she is the right style to me, quiet and easy-going. The happiest time was that she cooked for me. Though the food tasted so so, I enjoyed and had a lot. I am missing it. I still remember when I was there , watching her cooking in the kitchen. At that moment I thought she was the wife, and I was the person she coked for. What warming time it was.

What more was that she prepare a blanket on the ground for me while we were there reading, becasue she knew I was sick that time. From that I know, she is a kind and thoughtful girl. I was deeply moved. Besides my mom,she is the few who concern about me.

Also, she talks to me when I was sad. She would be the first to call. Am I too easy to fall in love, especially one-way love. I know definitely it is. For she is still having blind dates with others. And I am only the very alter ego to her. Poorly I responded to her words when she mentioned she loved someone else. What hell was that in my mind!

Crashing from heaven to the hell!

A nice lunch with friends at home.

Yesterday I invited a lot of my friends to my house for lunch. Most of the friends are from Web International School where I made friends with them. All of them are beautiful ladies expect my teacher Chuch a handsome man from USA. Chuch is one of my favorite teachers. He helps me with my English and my religion. He is faithful and fear from god. He is humorous for he always makes jokes with me though I sometime can't catch the ideas.

Actually the lunch is special. In Wenzhou City we call it Fen Sui Jiu which means you get you one-year age from the banquet. Each year every family will hold this banquet and invite his relatives to come and enjoy together. It is a luxurious feast. Usually we prepare 8 kinds of cold dishes which are displayed on the table. However the staple food(more than 10 kinds) will come one after another when everyone presents at the table.
This time it was my mom and my sistet-in-law prepared the stuff. And thanks for my neighbor Uncle Wu, he cooked everything.

But unfortunately I lost my taste when I was there with everyone at the table. Because I got too nervous the day before the banquet so that I did not sleep well. To the worse, my stomach hurt that time. It made me even much sleepier. Oh,my god. It was my first time to invite so many friends,but I think everyone knew that I was sick that time. Might them thought they were overstayed? I do hope that I could have been with them longer. However they didn't stay a long time for they all said I shall relax more. Then they said goodbye.

God,it is nightmare. I hope everyone can understand I always welcome them. Though I was sick, I could bear it. And I long to be with my friends. I haven't meet so many friends since I graduated from Web school. I don't know whether we might lose contact one day. In spite of my english is much improved there at Web, I still believe friends make my time and studying there more valuable.

Well,things have already happened,let it be. I would like to invite them more, maybe for snacks,maybe for Ma Jiang. I know they like it. Brother got a Ma Jiang table for fun. But we haven't use it much. Shall keep the stuff working,right? Iet me see, who shall be invited next time...

To be a secret for the time being.

PS: Thanks for mom,daddy,brother and sister in law. They have been helped me a lot in 2008. I love you all.