Am I truely loving?

Recently I am closed with a girl. To me, I feel comportable and relaxed when I am with her. I enjoy the feeling very much. The more I spend with her, the stronger it gets.

I wonder whether this feeling is love. She is not that pretty. But I think she is the right style to me, quiet and easy-going. The happiest time was that she cooked for me. Though the food tasted so so, I enjoyed and had a lot. I am missing it. I still remember when I was there , watching her cooking in the kitchen. At that moment I thought she was the wife, and I was the person she coked for. What warming time it was.

What more was that she prepare a blanket on the ground for me while we were there reading, becasue she knew I was sick that time. From that I know, she is a kind and thoughtful girl. I was deeply moved. Besides my mom,she is the few who concern about me.

Also, she talks to me when I was sad. She would be the first to call. Am I too easy to fall in love, especially one-way love. I know definitely it is. For she is still having blind dates with others. And I am only the very alter ego to her. Poorly I responded to her words when she mentioned she loved someone else. What hell was that in my mind!

Crashing from heaven to the hell!